Monday, May 10, 2010

When It Rains...

I seem to have lost Girl Power Claire somewhere along the way about six months ago, and I've been struggling to find her ever since.

To be fair, I have had quite a lot to deal with these past few months. You would think that after having pulled myself up by the roots to move to an entirely new country, everything else would be a piece of cake... NOT! I don't know, maybe the pressure of a new job just doesn't agree with me. Maybe I'm just not very good at dealing with change.

Or maybe, deep down inside, I am really just a Type B kind of person playing at being a Type A lunatic.

It doesn't help that at this point, I'm still so muddled about what it is that I really want. It's hard to motivate yourself to a course of action when you're not very clear on what your motives are.

What the heck am I doing here and what am I doing it for?

I feel bad about whining when in reality I am pretty lucky to be where I am... but sometimes, being lucky is relative. All I know is that these days, it seems that all there is is rain... and it's pouring pretty darn hard.

Okay, rant over.



Manggy said...

Hang in there! I know this is going to be a little cheesy - from one type B to another (I think) - but do you think watching an inspirational movie about someone figuring out a goal and achieving it through determination is in order? That's why I always stop the channel when "Rudy" is showing!

I know, ang babaw. But it might jump-start your spirit :)

dr_clairebear said...

i think i just need to find my joy again. it's nowhere these days...