Saturday, November 22, 2008

Smack in Mundania and Other Blah Blahs

I have a confession to make. The utterly barren landscape of my blog over the past few days cannot be accounted for the busyness of my Real Life. The fact that I've recently discovered that my parents and aunts and uncles have discovered my online sanctuary may be playing a bit of a part in it (sorry, guys, but it's true - knowing you read my blog sort of weirds me out)- but that's another story for another day.

On the contrary, for the first time in months I've been relatively free to do whatever I want with my down time without any obligations hanging over my head. My life here has settled into a routine - and I suppose that's where some of my current ennui stems from. But for some weird reason, I'm not scrambling to take advantage of this lull to explore or to do more at the moment.

So what have I been doing apart from going through my day-to-day routine? Catching up on my pulp fiction reading list, for one. Backing up my dying iPod's music files. Experimenting with making my own salad rolls. Spending entire days off (apart from going to the gym for a work out) just lying around and doing nothing. I haven't even felt like blogging!

You'd think that all this down time has given me more time for introspection and figuring out what to do with the rest of my life. But I have persevered and succeeded in avoiding that as well.

I still have no definite plans for the foreseeable future - a bit of a concern when I am going on month eleven of what was allegedly my one year "break." Thinking about the future just gives me a headache - so I've been choosing not to think about the future at all. I know, I know - wonderfully mature behavior. Obviously, I am currently embracing the identity of drifter after being a pathologic planner all of my life.

I really need to pull myself out of this pit of blahs I've suddenly fallen into and get my positive energy going again.

6 comments:

Manggy said...

Hahaha! I know exactly what you mean :P Buti na lang they don't talk to me about it. "Respect my thoughts," I said.
You could still enchant us with travel stuff and stories about Perth... It's also "family-friendly", heh heh :)

Ann said...

I'd freak out and move in a heartbeat should anyone in my family (apart from my sister) find my blog.

Anyway, it's not so bad to just be sometimes. Not disregarding the future but just being more into the journey than the actual destination, as the cliche goes.

rayms said...

AHA! Binabasa pala ng mga magulang mo yung blog mo!!!... Alam nyo po ba na si Claire ay malapit ng magka BF at ang pangalan nya ay si ________! Hahahahaha!

Its a good thing my parents aren't computer savvy, kundi PATAY!!! Hahahahaha...

Walking on Water said...

ironic isn't it that sometimes your blog has intended readers who don't even bother reading it?
i missed your entries mother. it's really okay to have no plans. i've also converted from pathologic planner to drifter. and i think it's better.=)

Bone MD said...

That's why I maintain a handful of blogs, the smoke screen just hide the real deal about my online affliction...

rencalago said...

life is really unpredictable.
be the best that you can be