Friday, May 30, 2008

Off the Edge

photo by timwillis

This is how I feel at the moment.

The visa is in, and suddenly I am careening full speed ahead. While I know I have been planning this trip for months, I feel like I've been suddenly pushed off the edge. Probably because, given my penchant for pessimism, I haven't really given myself any leeway to get used to the idea that I'm leaving.

On the other hand, glitches just keep on coming - some of them due to my own stupidity and lack of foresight. I am still running against the deadline, and since the process of getting the visa took so darn long, my papers there are no longer valid and I have to send new copies. It's a tedious and frustrating process. This is particularly daunting because I have bled my savings dry and if things don't fall through, I will be all but destitute.

Oh, well... nothing to be done now but let what will happen, happen! After all, they don't call it a leap of faith for nothing.

10 comments:

Ness said...

Doc Clairebear,

Thank you for letting us join you in this great adventure you are embarking upon. I can just imagine your excitement mixed with apprehensions, bordering on panic perhaps? I would be, as in 'totoo ba to?'

We, your loyal fans and readers, will continue to subaybay the unfolding of your life.

Tek ker lagi...

P.S.
Puede sumama?


God speed to you, Claire!

levi elephant said...

I hope you didn't die on that leap.

Abaniko said...

Where are you going? Is it for a short vacation or transfer of work? Wherever you're headed, here's wishing you a happy and safe trip. Enjoy! Meantime, I hope all your paper works will be over soon. :)

Manggy said...

The helplessness usually helps with the anxiety, haha :) Good luck Dr. Claire!

Panaderos said...

The visa was the biggest hurdle here and you have successfully passed it. That was the most important part.

Don't worry too much about bleeding your savings dry. Focus on getting the remainder of the paperwork done and hopefully, you'll be on your way to Australia soon. Things will sort themselves out sooner or later.

Best of luck, Claire. The pieces are slowly but surely falling into place for you. Please stay strong and keep looking forward. Take care. :)

Vanessa said...

Best of luck and congratulations for having the courage to follow your dreams.

dr_clairebear said...

At everyone! many, many thanks for the words of encouragement.

I am in a state of panic right now... and if my feet were cold before, they are sub-ZERO now. part of me is looking for a loophole to back out... hay.

It sucks big time that my internet connection is currently on the fritz and i can't reply to all of your great comments one by one...

GraceMags said...

hello dr. clairebear. are you leaving ? wow. i hope everything works out for you. best regards always :)

rayms said...

OMG! So this is really happening!!! We'll miss you mother... Ingat ka doon sa australia!

megamomph said...

Good luck Claire! You should change the blog name now, it should be from the middle of somewhere!
When is the departure date? Gosh, there has to be a despedida! Can I sponsor one? ;)